In just a couple of weeks...

...i'll have less than 100 days til my due date.

wow

so far I have been just so excited that this is the last time that I'm doing this 'pregnancy thing' that I haven't really enjoyed it. Plus, unfortunately I'm always struggling with an irrational fear that something will go wrong or be wrong with my baby. Not a gripping, all-consuming fear, just a little niggle in the back of my mind...that nevertheless stops me from really living in the moment and enjoying the miracle of life.

but i think it's time to get over it and relish this final experience of being pregnant. To not be concerned so much with ill-fitting clothes, the seemingly never-ending discomforts and whether or not it's a girl! lol (altho, the day after my birthday we're going to have the 3D ultrasound and I'm secretly - well ok, maybe not so secretly - hoping for a little confirmation either way then!).

so...what i'm enjoying about being pregnant right now:

~ the feel of the kicks in my tummy

~ Josh constantly pulling my shirt up and kissing my tummy and telling me he, 'really loves his baby' (yep, totally melts my heart!)

~ the thought of how our little growing family is the 'new start'...that the abuse/neglect/dysfunction stops here thanks to God's grace and our children will have a different legacy

~ i'm not sure how to describe it...but the way other people rejoice with you...kinda join in and get excited along with you. perhaps that's why I don't mind well-meaning people touching my tummy - i love it when other people get excited with me :)

~ the fact that SO MANY of my friends from both church, work and school days are all having babies at the same time :)

~ looking forward to the 3D ultrasound ;)

~ hearing the baby's heart beat

Thank you God for this miracle you've given us. Help me to fully appreciate it here and now and be grateful.