poor, neglected little blog!

I think blogging, like a lot of things, goes through seasons. At least it does for me. Sometimes I just don't feel like it. Then I do.

Tomorrow I'm off on a personal retreat. I had heard about the idea over the years, but it was having children and then stumbling on this website that really made me want to have one of my own.

But somehow it just never seemed to happen. Until a friend at my mothers group had one ;) And then I finally got my act together (it helped that a local motel chain had a sale!) and booked an overnight time away.

I have plans for some things I want to do, Kat even gives tips on some things to do. I definitely want to spend time planning and working on a mission statement etc. I also want to sleep in! (altho I doubt I will lol). I want to spend time with God, just reading His word and praying and waiting on Him....listening to some of my recent music purchases ;) rest and refocus.

So yeah, I can't wait :)

I read this blog post tonight and it really struck a chord with me. Josh was asking a lot of questions about my dad in the car on the way to church last sunday. Some of them were simple, like how was he related. Others were harder, and brought emotions with them I wasn't expecting.

'Did your dad love you very much?'

I took a long time to answer that one. It's complex - how to make it simple for an almost-7-year-old? I decided to say, basically, that I don't think he did. I think he probably wanted to, but didn't know how...

I believe I have forgiven him. I have learned, however, that it's easier to 'forgive' someone when they're not around - when their shortcomings aren't always before your eyes. And I know I've spent a lot of my life just acting like he didn't exist at all - much easier that way! Then I'm shocked at the force of emotion when I listen to songs like 'Butterfly Kisses'. I guess it'd be weird not to be sad at such a foundational part of your life being less than it should be...

Life is interesting at times. I want to always be grateful for the blessings, and praise God in all things.

On a much lighter note, I have a new baby!! It's name is Canon Rebel T3i EOS 600D :) and I'm super keen to learn how to use it well. We have been without a 'good' camera for several months since the other one was broken. Very exciting!

Maybe next post I'll have some pics from it for the blog ;)